The Bloody Time Band-Aid Came Off

To be forgotten will never be forgiveness

It’s easy to forget the screaming drunk fights

Snarky comments about what I ate

Peanut butter and jelly’s are not healthy

Splitting hairs about leggings, dresses, lingerie and butt sex

It’s easy to forget the paper cuts

No, I’m not wearing a condom

We were supposed to leave 10 minutes ago

Pass all the blame onto me

You set the tone for a bad day.

It’s easy to forget the pus-filled put me downs

Swallowing my inner voice with 15mg of Ambien

The nagging anxiety that lived in my heart

Feeling my stomach drop when you said

Fighting is easier when I don’t look at you

It’s easy to forget that I was never enough

That I forgot who I was

That I stabbed my self

Shattering my dreams into our go-to jokes

A mogul? Yeah right.

I hated myself to the bone

You brought out the worst in me

I hate you so much

I might forget you

But forgiveness is far away

                                                            But

                                                            You showed me precisely how it should not be

                                                            Exactly how not to live and feel

                                                            Perfectly how not to treat people

                                                            Thanks. 

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