You know what this time away from you has been good for (among other things)? Giving me enough distance for perspective and time to become familiar and comfortable with my feelings for you. I mean: to get to know exactly how I feel for you on my own, separated from you and your feelings for me and how they make me feel. And with this type of isolation I have come to know that I have independent feeling for you, healthy ones. The kind that make it so that when I see you in pictures with girls I don't know, I feel some level anxiety or aching or emptiness- not jealously or insecurity; not emotions that reflect me, but only how I feel for you- because I don't want to lose you. I mean because I want to have you! Because I really really want you in my life. Because my life is best with you in it, in a positive way. And that is all there is to it.
Humbug.
Determined,
Sunshine
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