To myself

Sweetheart, I love you so much. You're trying so hard. Please don't give up yet- I know it's tempting. You are doing so well, I'm so proud of you. I love you with all my heart and know your intentions are good. I'll be here with you through the whole thing ok. You're doing so well, beautiful girl, you can keep going I know it. You deserve a little slack, I recognize what you've been through, I recognize the good that you try to do, and all of the effort you've exerted for yourself and everyone around you, and I understand that you need a little space. I will not love you less for your mistakes, I will not blame you for being weak sometimes, and tired, and scared. I love you endlessly. I don't expect you to be perfect. I will not leave your side ever, through this whole mess, and beyond it, sweet girl. You are beautiful. I see you clean, I see you cry, I see you tell people to be quiet when you invite them over, I see you trying to be a good roommate in these hard times, I see you trying to be a good friend in these hard times, I see you trying to be a good daughter and sister in these hard times, and I see you trying to be good to yourself in these hard times. AND be a part-time girlfriendish friend thing. I see you trying to stay normal. I see you freaking out about catering to everyone and being considerate. Don't freak- I  see the good in your heart, pretty one.

And with the pirate, sweet girl, you know you care a lot more for him than you let on. This is genuine, don't be scared. You're intentions are never bad baby girl. Let him in. I don't think he's the type to start fires. He's beautiful, just like you. I like him.

I'm proud of you.

With all of my love and support,

Sunshine